I have been trying to write this blog for several days now but with no real luck. It does not coincide with it being the end of the year, nor does it mean that this is something that I am really about to do.
I moved to London in 2001 and stayed there until the spring of 2007 when I moved back home, due to work I moved back to London in 2008 and have been there since. In all the years that I lived in London I ventured back to Bristol at least five times a year. This year was the year that I came back less than five. However in the times that I have visited this year I have come to the conclusion that I am missing Bristol.
The decision for me to move to Sweden in 2010/11 is one that will change my life forever. Many friends of mine that I met in London have moved from overseas and that is something that I have applauded. Recently I did this test where I evaluated which years of this decade I was happiest in, the year that came top was 2004. During this year I was living in Canary Wharf, was into the third year of a relationship and my job was a decent one. All of my friends lived in London.
If we fast forward five years it’s the complete opposite, I can count the number of friends I have in London on one hand, the majority of what I would call close friends are in Bristol. I have a well paid job in London, but the amount of money that I am paying for rent is nothing short of extortionate. I feel somewhat in a trap with my work, it feels that I am living in a solitary existence. My flatmate is a sad isolated man that trawls the internet for “babes” and then spends an extortionate amount of money trying to date these women. He’s in a lot of debt and reminds me of one of those old men that props up bars drinking in the same pub each night trying to put the world to rights. I have always said that I would rather die than become that state.
Maybe it is because that I don’t like normality or routine. Or could it be that I have always had itchy feet.
Anyway I am dragging this on. Let me take this back to normality.
The question is I am moving to Sweden as that is where the love of my life lives. But do I stay in London or do I move back home. There are certain elements of my life that lie in both cities. Bristol holds my heart and it is where my family lives but London is where my cultural heart is. My friends live in both but I will miss the comfort of Bristol but London has the cultural exuberance that I will miss.
So the question is Sweden is my destination but do I stay in London or move back to Bristol for one year. If I stay I face boredom and isolation, if I return I face a possible financial nightmare but contentment.
Please help me with my decision.
