Sometimes there is a time in life where things change so rapidly that it catches you unaware.
I would say that in my life I have been through so many ups and downs that it truly defines the world roller-coaster.
One year ago things were becoming stagnant. I was in the middle of a rather tedious time. I had been in a smaller city in Sweden and was finding that I was longing for the big bright lights of the city again. After living in London for almost twenty years life in Norrköping was becoming stale. Of course my mind was thinking beyond Sweden, it thought that there were bigger and better places to live. Warmer climate, brighter evenings and certainly hotter days.
It was exactly one year ago to the day that I applied for two jobs in Stockholm, two interviews in the same day. Got offered both jobs the same day and decided on one. The first two months of travelling from Norrköping to Stockholm were a serious pain in the ass. I think I awoke at 4 am each day and ended up at home around 8.30 each evening. Fifteen hour days, five days a week. It was a wonder that I could even keep my eyes open at times.
Moving to Stockholm was not easy. I was in a place where there were some strange people in my life who seemed to latch on to me like a leech trying to suck blood. It felt that I had moved from one place to another yet I was feeling more and more suffocated each day.
Then bang! My health decided to take a turn for the worst when I was diagnosed with a head injury from the past.
Fast forward eight months. Head is 100% fine, the ice from winter has melted and summer had just about begun. Here I am again…at the crossroads where everything seems to point to change. My immediate thoughts are of a move away to sunnier places.
I know that I need to be here, it was told to me so long ago. Given that vision of life I would not have stayed here all this time if I felt that my heart did not belong here. I’m not just a person trying to find life here, I know it’s destiny that Sweden and I were meant to be, but how and why is still a pure mystery.
It is a cold and barren place at times, yet somehow through all the ups and downs I manage to survive.
A new phase is about to begin. I have no idea where this will take me but, once again. Fasten that seat-belt.
Let the bumpy ride begin!
